H got home today after a really really long week. Its been filled with joy and chaos and I’m exhausted… the state of the world, our house and my own brain ticking into overtime, plus some well timed night wakings from the kids, has made this week feel longer than most.

The kids also really seem to be really feeling all the feelings about H being away, and getting ready to move, but also, it taking forever!

They fell asleep and it’s nearly 1am and I’m still up, talking to H about life and random facts… like those of moose and orcas, which shark is a favourite and whatever other tangents we find ourselves winding down. The kids are snoring between us as we chat, and I’ve just thought, this is one of my favourite parts of our relationship.

When we started our relationship we’d spend hours talking, he was UK based and I was in Gibraltar… sometimes we’d Skype late at night and fall asleep on a call, having spoken until 3 or 4 in the morning about any and everything we could.

Now, more than 10 years later, we are still talking; still finding conversations that keep us up for hours, still staying up way too late. The only difference is that we’re not on a Skype call and instead of classes to attend tomorrow morning, we’ve got 3 beautiful humans, who are absolutely going to wake us up with plans for a day of play.

I’ve had a few interesting conversations this week about how much we’ve changed as people, and reflecting on it… it’s such a anchoring experience to feel supported and loved, and deeply interested in talking to each other.

It isn’t always picture perfect… but what relationship is? Whether it’s our family, friendships, partners, parents or children, relationships test us and bring emotional rollercoasters. This is no different. BUT we are here… past 1am and talking about life, plans, random facts and the world. It’s pretty epic actually. 

For tonight, that’s all I can/want to share… the 2010 version of me wouldn’t believe her eyes!

Where ever you are at, I hope you keep trying to make choices that make your heart happy.

With love, Rohana x