We reached 37 weeks pregnant and I am so ready to have this baby now.

I feel guilty saying that because I love being pregnant, plus a few weeks ago I was hoping to carry over; but now, I am ready! Mostly because I am tired and aching and the heartburn plus swollen legs are making it hard to do the usual stuff with my son. However, I am also acutely aware that being pregnant still means I only have 1 tiny person to look after not 2. It’s a little conflicting really.

The last few days I’ve been prepping and hand on heart honest, my body and mind are telling me to get ready. I still have a few major things to wait for/planned so I think I’m waiting for them, but also craving a release of emotion and stress. I just want to give in to my body and let it take over, but I know I need to hang on a while first, sort the last major bits – like my placenta encapsulation box – and then I can let baby and body take over.

How crazy to think that in a few weeks I’ll be mum all over again, to a new human. I’ll have my heart grow to love another being and I’ll be able to see my boy finally meet and be with the sister I have told him about for so long.

I’m nervous and excited and worried and filled with joy just thinking about it all.

This evening I have been extremely uncomfortable with shooting pains that don’t necessarily hurt as much as shock me. I never had them with my first pregnancy, but I do feel like they are a sign, not of labour, but of my body preparing for it.

So our bags are packed and now we have the waiting game. We’ll hopefully get cleared for the midwife led unit in 2 days time and after that it’ll be up to baby when she decides to come.

I am so ready to meet her and yet I want to keep her tucked away safe and snug.

Wish me luck either way… I think I’m going to need it!